Off balance work-life balance
As a work at home Mom I'm surrounded 24-7 by business and home life. Admittedly it makes my commute to work a breeze and when I'm in production mode I can work in super comfy and causal clothes. I also get to spend most of my days with the tiny humans and go on fun adventures. There are some really fantastic upsides to my career.
Life and work are in mixed simultaneously in my life. As I'm writing this at 10:10 am in the morning I'm watching the tiny humans play in their PJs and eat handfuls of goldfish out of the box. This isn't normal at my house. I'm generally at the gym by this time in the morning( to carve out some me time). However my work-life balance has been off balance the whole month of July and I'm trying to regain my footing.
The tiny humans are 5 and 20 months. For the entire month of July tiny human #2 (20 month old) has been waking up in the middle of the night 5 out of 7 nights (thanks 2 year old molars) Since he's been waking up in the middle of the night the small amounts of sleep I have learned to function on have become even smaller and my life powered by more and more pots of coffee.
I Mom by day and work by night. My general working hours are form 10:00 pm-2:00 am. If I can get tiny human#2 to nap during the day then I might be able to squeeze in some work during an afternoon.
I know I don't sleep enough. If fact I know I should sleep more. Since I still have young kids night time is when I can work with out interruptions or the request to watch Sesame Street on second monitor.
When the little sleep I have been able to cobble together most nights is interrupted by my teething 20 month old I turn into a Zombie (Mom Zombie) I find myself trying to
squeeze more work in during the day with the kids playing inside. I'm trying to juggle
sleep deprivation, running a business, an endless to-do list, kids, housework, doctors appointments, summer fun, etc. I'm not so much juggling it I'm really throwing everything up in the air simultaneously hoping some of it doesn't come back down, some of it takes care of it's self (I'm still waiting for self washing laundry), and that I can maybe catch what does come down.
Mostly this month I have been working until maybe 11pm, if at all, and mostly trying to catch up on sleep because I'm exhausted from waking up in the middle of the night nightly.
The bright side of all of this is that I am my own boss. So the only one upset with me is me. I am probably harder on myself than anyone else. I also get to determine what the work priorities are and set my schedule.
For example I was working until 2 am last night then tiny human #2 woke up and I didn't actually get to sleep until 4 am. Today my work priority might be an afternoon nap because despite 4 cups of coffee I'm still tired.
My schedule is flexible enough that I can work around most of this. I am thankful that I don't have "core business hours" that I have to be present for in an office. I am thankful I don't have a daycare hours I have to worry about while trying to manage my workday. I know the logistics of my day could be more stringent, tougher, and more tiring to navigate.
Lately I have had more life happening than work happening. It happens. Everything in life ebbs and flows. If you feel off balance too, don't worry you're not alone.